i was about to say, withdrawal symptoms, but i couldn't think of what it could be that you'd be taking then i remembered! you're on steroids! yes, these things are normal after a long stint on steroids. it's like any other drug, body gets used to it and flips out for a while when it's gone. give it another day or two, should subside by next week.

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RUN, rabbit, run
dig that hole, forget the sun
and when at last the work is done
don't sit down, time to dig another one

steps taken forward
and sleepwalking back again...
encumbered forever by desire and ambition

^{Thank you, Rabbit. :3 I was able to sleep last night. I'm still tired as a bitch, though. I need to catch up on my sleep. Then again, it is summer, and I plan to stay up all hours of the night. Or try to. Last summer I told myself I would, but I usually went to bed at 1 or 2 in the morning. We'll see. It'll be a challenge.}

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i miss the days of staying up til 3 in the morning and being psychotic... coffee and cigarettes diet. too much fun. nowadays i stay up that late and have to go to work the next day, you might as well have killed me and then resurrected me again to do shit, i look enough like a zombie for two days after!

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RUN, rabbit, run
dig that hole, forget the sun
and when at last the work is done
don't sit down, time to dig another one

steps taken forward
and sleepwalking back again...
encumbered forever by desire and ambition

Awww, Emmy! I have similar problems. I'm actually going to be talking to the doctor when I go about getting me a prescription sleeping pill. t.t I would go for anti-anxiety first, but mom says no to that, and that we'll try a sleeping pill first. I'm up until 5 or 6 a.m. CONSTANTLY. And I haven't really gotten a good sleep for like half a year. I promise you, someone is here and watching me... All of our ghosts here, I usually get along with. But there's one, the man. He's always standing over my bed watching me, and it scares the shit out of me. Usually when I deal with paranormal things, I do fine. I just get drained from it is all. But this one is very very different... I think I know what it is, and maybe even who he is. And it scares more than just the shit out of me. T.T

I suggest doing something relaxing before. So like get comfortable an hour before or something. And light a few candles, sit or lay quietly on your bed or floor. Just meditate a little. It helps me a bit, but I'm far beyond help on the whole ordeal. I get drained by people around me, which is why I don't like meeting new people or being around many people. Plus I get drained by paranormal activity, which my area is swarmed in. >-< That plus my insane ability to overdo things (female hormones that I swore I'd never get, and still try to fight myself to not have, which makes it even worse) , it all just destroys my nerves. And for months upon months, I've had these problems. And recently all this shit with dad, and with Faye coming back around and having to talk to her soon... Sleep is the last thing I'm thinking about.

My week-long trip was helpful, though. I definitely got someone to hold me for once while I had a total break down. >-< I love Amma, but I still wish it was Mal... But she also told me that I really just need to pray for dad and do what I can, and leave the rest of it to him and God. So, that's pretty much dealt with until something strikes up to make a change. For the better, I pray.. I got to clear my mind and relax, and spend TONS of time with Mal. Webcamming. It really filled a bit of that void we have from not getting to physically be around each other, y'know? And the great side is that my birthday is coming up in less than 2 months. <3 And it'll be fitting it tight, and I'll probably have to make up money for what I didn't get, but I found the exact same laptop Amma has. For 226 dollars all-together. It has a webcam on it. Thank God for laptops with webcams costing less. xD It's small, the screen is about dvd-case sized. But it's fast, and it has a webcam on it, and it's affordable.

I've calculated it all out... I'll have 80 from mom and dad. And 50 from Amma. I'll be getting 20-50 from Papaw and Kathy. Mom and I will have to do some persuading on Papaw, since it is my 16th. X3 And 50 from all of my friends put together. What I don't have, I'll either haggle out of Amma, or a friend, and pay them back later on or something. Cuz I'm so friggin' getting a job after my birthday. That way I can still get the laptop, because I can't wait longer than 2 months to see Mal again. I'd rather cut my own foot off, sew it back on, and cut it off again. t.t It was so unbelievably helpful, Emmy, you have no idea. I almost cried the first night. xD We played some Truth or Dare. Like every night I was there too. I loved it. <3

Donate please? <.< >,> Kidding. xD Sorry about the length, dear. t.t We just haven't talked for awhile.

Love ya, Emmy.

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^{Aww. Haha.
I was so awesome at staying up until 4 AM talking to friends.
Now I've lost those friends and nothing can keep me awake for my life. Nowadays, I go to bed around midnight or one, depending on if I can sleep or not. If not then I usually call my jewish friend. I think he's nocturnal or something. He's kind of weird. Short and smelly, too. Well. Smelly in a good way. Anyway.
I want to find some kind of tradition. Like going to wal-mart at 2 in the morning or.. go to McDonalds and get chicken nuggets and a sweet tea. I love those little traditions..}

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<sup>Holy hell. o____o
The whole ghost thing scares the shit out of me. D: I'm so afraid of the paranormal. >____< Goddamnit. I want a laptop too, but I think I'll have to wait until I'm a senior. (I always spell senior wrong... Hooray for spell check.) Three months and nine days until my birthday. >_< Damn, I'll be sixteen... I'm so scared to grow up! ;-; And Hunter will be eighteen in November. Jeeze.. AND he'll be a senior. People grow up so fast. ._. And when he graduates he'll stay at home, more than likely, but if his dad can't afford to pay for anything like he can't now, then I'm going to try and convince him to start looking for a place and finding a job. I think he's getting an internship from his friend's dad because he's a psychologist himself. Hunter's good with psychology. Like really? I hope he gets famous for it. xD Or maybe I'm just that retarded. But anyway. With my money, I want to save up for a $850 camera. x_x Which will probably take awhile considering I don't have a job.. I may just give up and wait till the price falls. And maybe mom and dad can afford it then. :/ Right now, we can barely pay for groceries. Because mom doesn't have a full-time job. It's all weddings and part-time at the violin shop. But hopefully after Jan and Diana give it to her she'll be able to get some more money and we won't struggle as much. But for now I guess we're dealing with it pretty well. How're you doing, financially? The economy sucks, doesn't it? .___. I hate it. Our presidents are idiots. >_< And you know I would donate, but I'm completely broke, darling. D: I don't know how I could even get money to you. I'm so undereducated. >_< Oh, and as soon as I can, I want to get you a little something for the gift you got me. I love the socks. And I haven't lost 'em yet. xD They're kind of hard to find sometimes, but. >.> I manage. There's so much laundry. @_@ Five people, man. Five people. Maybe one day I'll fly Mal out to you. xD Pay for his ticket and everything. >.> But we'll see. I need to get a damn job first. xD Anyway. Good luck on getting that laptop. I'll try to be here, if you need me. You can IM my phone, actually. If you put +1(***)******* (that's supposed to be my number. >.> on your buddy list. It'll be on all the time, and I have no problem with waking up to a text or two from you. But keep it short. I'll probably get up and get on the computer, so I don't have to deal with my retarded, slow phone. I'll IM you later and we'll figure it out then.
I love you too!

lollongcommentsftw.</sup>

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i know!

used to be a tradition to eat at the 24 hour jack in the box after whatever it was we did. anything else, i don't really remember, it's been so long.

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RUN, rabbit, run
dig that hole, forget the sun
and when at last the work is done
don't sit down, time to dig another one

steps taken forward
and sleepwalking back again...
encumbered forever by desire and ambition

^{Ahaha sounds awesome. :3 I'm sure they'll come someday. I just wish they would now. xD}

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