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Neglect. I Am Finally Back.

Thu Dec 31, 2009, 8:07 PM
For some reason, I'd forgotten about this for awhile. -headdesk- But I am back and I might have some things to show.

"Oh really, Explodies?! Is it true?! You'll finally add more pictures to your wonderful, amateur gallery?!"

Yes. Yes it is.

I have crap that I had to take pictures of for photography class over break, the assignment asked for thirty-six images of whatever the hell we wanted to take pictures of, and I believe I've got some really nice ones. Christmas is the perfect time to assign these things. Especially considering I had gone down to Chicago over break. I wish I was more inspiring. -sigh-

I did not get what I really wanted for Christmas this year. Which was the Canon Rebel XS. I tested it out at Best Buy a month or two back. It's beautiful. I want it. I really, really do. So my next few wishlists will be of this camera and only this camera. I do have a super fucking old camera that my ortho gave me, but I am not excited one tiny bit because it's a whopping -GASP- FOUR MEGAPIXELS! So fantastic. Anyway. I did get a new phone. Which I could settle for instead. My old one is a piece of shit. Though, my new one was $200. I did pay off part of it with a $150 upgrade discount thing. And my dad will be getting $60 back for a rebate of some kind. So that isn't too bad.

Anyway. Life's pretty smooth, currently. I'm living the single life at the moment because I'm tired of men and thinking I might be making a mistake and drama and bitches and hoes. It's just too hard to deal with right now because school is legit kicking my ass. Part of the reason I have not been on, actually. Another is that an incident occurred that I am not going to go into detail about that caused me to lose all priveledges except seeing Hunter or Brianna. It wasn't too bad.... I lied. It really was. And thousands of pictures of yours truly resulted. So I'll have to choose between some for a new DevID. I believe I have changed slightly. All I need now is a haircut. -whurpwhurp-

Well. I do talk a lot. Please enjoy the images I (if I'm not feeling too lazy and not do it like I promise like I usually do.) will be uploading for you. And thank you all for the support and watches. You have no idea how much I appreciate it. :heart:

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  • Mood: Homicidal
  • Listening to: Framing Hanley - Lollipop Remix
  • Reading: The Monstrumologist

It just gets better, guys.

Sat Oct 24, 2009, 10:09 AM
Dru, I'd totally come live with you.
And thank you Art.

Not only have I not seen Hunter in almost two weeks, him and I are split up for now. Now, I don't want anyone to say sorry or call him an asshole or any shit like that. Because I'm angry and upset about it enough already as much as he is. I honestly don't give a fuck anymore. I've always been stuck in this room, in a shell. It's hard to let people in instead of push them away. It's all new to me, it's all something I haven't ever dealt with like this before. Every time I've trusted someone, or let someone in and had true feelings about them, I fucked up. I pushed them away. I threw them out. Though, breaking up doesn't necessarily contribute to the fact that I need to learn to let people in. I think I'm becoming what I was a few years ago. I didn't think. I didn't care. I didn't show anything. I was completely unreadable. I was something different on the outside. Because I'm afraid. I'm always afraid. I've thought of things I would never think or do. It's getting to the point where I just don't. I lay in bed all the time, I get sick more often than ever. I need some help, but I don't want any.

-sighs- I'll be out of this mood soon enough, I hope. I just want to be back together with Hunter and be happy. Because I feel so lost.

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  • Mood: Homicidal
  • Listening to: Beethoven - Moonlight Sonata

Shit.

Sun Oct 18, 2009, 11:37 AM
It's been awhile, hasn't it?

To be honest, I have few things to say.

I have no social life thanks to the bitch that controls my life.

I was found out. I'm not a virgin.

My mom thinks I'm gonna fail at school just because I have two D's. Only because my history teacher is an irresponsible bitch and my geometry teacher can't teach worth shit. And I pulled two grades up already.

I haven't seen my boyfriend in almost over a week. And this is the time I need him the most. Because my week fucking sucked.

Obviously, my parents don't give a flying fuck. They just care that I get into a good college and shit. It's all what they want. Not me.

Thanks guys. Your parenting skills rock ass hardcore.

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  • Mood: Homicidal
  • Listening to: Anberlin - The Feel Good Drag

A Long Overdue Update

Wed Aug 26, 2009, 12:16 PM
So I've been having fun this summer, obviously.
I haven't taken any pictures DeviantART worthy, and I have four essays and 201 pictures to take by the first day of school which is in less than two weeks.
I'm on a speedy roll, guys.

Anyway. I'll post some of the things I'll be taking pictures of. ("inspiration" from the photographers I'm expected to research and write about. Booooring.) My photographers include: Ansel Adams, Aaron Siskind (personal favorite.), Paul Strand, and Dorothea Lange. Now, if you go and research these people, you might notice something. No human subjects. Exactly. You see, I live in a world where I associate myself with the voices in my head and my convenient desktop computer all day. And non-camera shy friends? That's a myth. There's no such thing, in my world. Plus, I can't use myself. And that girl right there is the best candidate. Oh well. Maybe next year.

Not anything too interesting event-wise happened this summer and I'm quite disappointed. I've changed a little bit, my attitude, my emotional effect. I've become more of a little asshole again. Because frankly, making people laugh because you're so heartless about things is quite enjoyable. And I've newly discovered I might be racist for disliking [link] And some people still question, why. I don't know if you've seen it, but I think it's quite ridiculous. The only african americans I know around here are pot heads, drug dealers, Oreos that date all the socially rejected because of their low self esteem and poor fashion, or just all out useless and unemployed. What's to celebrate about that? No joke, my school sucks. The teachers suck, the people suck, sometimes I catch myself wishing to go back to Catholic school. But you know. They'd reject me in a heartbeat.

That's all for now, darlings. I will update again as soon as I get my schedule (Which will be September first.) And again after my first day of being a sophomore. Which I'm definitely not looking forward to.

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  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: AFI - But Home Is Nowhere
  • Reading: Many things.
  • Watching: Shane Dawson.
  • Playing: Maplestory (trying.)
  • Eating: CoCo Wheats.
  • Drinking: Milk.

Nothing.

Sat Jun 27, 2009, 9:35 AM
For four days.

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  • Mood: Tired
  • Reading: Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher
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